RE-LEASE: Allow or enable to Escape from Confinement; Set Free.
The wake-up call that I needed to focus on my health came the summer of 2016 when I went for my annual physical, and was told that I was Pre-Diabetic. This news shook me…I was seriously scared. I had to do something about my weight and I had to do it NOW! I have struggled with my weight since I was a child so this was not my first time at the rodeo…once again… here I was beginning the long haul of trying to take off 100 lbs. All I could think was this has to be the LAST time…you don’t have it in you to do this again…you have got to figure this out. With that, I knew I would have to do dig deep if I was going to make a permanent change. I would need to examine myself honestly to get to the root of the problem, however difficult that would be… yes genetics were involved, I’m not built like a small person, but there were clearly emotional issues that I was ignoring.
At the start of the New Year 2017 I decided to try a different approach, one that didn’t focus so much on every little calorie or bite of food that I was putting in my mouth. I let go of the idea that I had to kill myself in the gym, be on a crazy “diet” or that my body should be a size 2…instead I decided to focus on my inner self and why it was that I kept repeating this cycle. The avenue I chose to help me on this journey is Vinyasa Yoga …it has changed my life.
I always thought that Yoga was for skinny bitches in Lululemon, and that I could never lose weight or be fit by practicing yoga…I could NOT have been more wrong. As I did the work on my inner self, it started to show on my outer self…which is something I had never done all those other times I was dieting, exercising or just plain starving myself to be thin. With the practice of Yoga and IntenSati I have learned to love an appreciate myself in a way that I never had before, and to let go of negative thoughts surrounding myself, my body, my 3 year old self shit…you know what I mean, and the habits and patterns that kept me feeling trapped. Practicing Yoga while sharing space and breath with others, has helped me to live my life from a more mindful place, from a place of gratitude and self- acceptance. I am enough now, where I am, who I am, and I am grateful for the life I live and the beautiful and amazing people in it. I am stepping out of my own way and letting myself truly shine in all ways I am meant to, because I AM allowed to be talented, successful, beautiful, loved and healthy both physically and mentally all at the same time…WE ALL ARE!
This year I have RELEASED 83lbs and 29” into the world, along with the baggage that I had been carrying with it for way to long…done…dropped at the curb and run over by a truck. There is a palpable lightness here that I have never felt before and it is such an incredible feeling that I want more… so I will continue on this journey to honor myself, because this is a marathon…not a sprint.
I recently had a physical and I am no longer pre-diabetic and in great health. With the launch of my Blog “This Curvy World” I want to share my journey, to inspire and be inspired by others. I’m excited about the possibilities 2018 will bring, as we continue to navigate This Curvy World together!